live, not just exist

Interesting.

From another blog found this one: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mid-life_crisis . I recognize some of this as thoughts from myself, but the symptoms are not the same. I don't think that I haven't accomplished enough, I do think that current work is not using my skills, knowledge and creativity as it is more or less implementing something according to standards created by others (with little anarchy part having to use for creativity to make things actually work regardless of standards).

Part of the problem is that it is so easy just to be there, that it partially feels comfortable to not go. As job is not really requiring much it makes things feeling so easy, and from my hobby and sidejob am getting much more as challenges, and use of creativity.

Another thing could be then to make those things my job. Maybe some day. At least would like to. That would meaning having intellectual challenges, creativity, making somethings, solving puzzles etc.